you need to visualise, imagine or think about what you want.
having the thoughts of positive things happening is great but you need to feel it, to think it, to put yourself in the picture, to think through what it would be like to have or be or do the something you desire so much.
Do it. Even if you think you can't visualise you can think about or conceptualise. Everyone can.
Good persistence, and good luck, but it is in your hands.
What do you think?